Tuesday, April 17, 2007

I can't look away

I love reading blogs. I guess it's a way for me to connect other people without having to invest a lot of time and energy into a relationship. I have a list of blogs that I check daily. Lately, I've been realizing that there is one particular blog that I have a love/hate relationship with. I like the fact that it's another mother with a young child. I like some of the topics are come up in her blog. But it's funny, because I'd say half of the time I come out of her blog feeling...drained. Maybe that's not the right word. I'm not sure what is though. And I'm not positive what keeps drawing me back to this particular blog. Don't worry, it's not any of you. To my knowledge, this person does not read my blog. And just in case, I'm keeping it vague enough that it wouldn't matter.

I think I feel a sense of snobbiness from this person. I guess if that's part of her true personality, then it will probably come out in her blog. I wonder, though, how much of it is a show for others. She at times makes (or at least appears to) herself look better than others. Her child is perfect. She's a great parent and does wonderful things for this child. She makes herself sound like Supermom sometimes. And she probably is a great mother. It's just something about the way she "flaunts" it.

So, why do I keep reading her blog. I return daily to see if she has posted anything new or interesting. I have realized my frustration with her, so if I feel like a particular blog entry is leaning towards showiness, then I stop reading it.

Have you ever been friends with a person you just constantly "give" to? And they just "take", "take", "take"? They might be a great person, but when you talk to them it's all about them. It's a one-sided friendship. I have a semi-friend that I had in college who was very much like this. You could try to carry on a conversation with her, but whenever you started telling anything about your life or something happening it always turned back to her. My one sister is like this. It's emotionally draining for me to have a conversation with her. Anyway, that's kind of the feeling I get from reading this particular blog. Not that I want a friendship with her. I think I'm tired of reading that blog, but I doubt I'll be able to stay away. There must be something there that draws me back for more.

Anyway, for some great blog reads, check my list.


Kelsey said...

My inner-seventh grader is dying to know who this is! I know it's not me, if my blog shows a mom trying to be perfect we are all in a lot of trouble! :-)

I have the same problem with blog addiction and I enjoy yours -- thanks for writing.

Swistle said...

I feel the same way about some of the blogs I read, and I love your title because that's just how it is: I tell myself I should stop reading the ones that make me feel tired or crabby, but somehow I can't.

Suburban Oblivion said...

My insecure inner self worried this might be about me, and then I literally snorted out loud when I got to the "perfect child" part. I nearly posted this on my blog last night but didn't, so I'll leave it for you here.

"If you have a well-behaved child it doesn't mean you are a perfect parent, it means you haven't had a difficult child yet."


Kelli in the Mirror said...

Yup, did the same thing, oh no, is it me?
But no. I certainly hope I don't come across as trying to be perfect!

And I do have blogs like that-every time I read them I get angry. Not sure why I keep on.

Annie said...

Blogging, reading others' blogs, and starting my own is a very recent phenomenon for me - and I TOTALLY get what you are saying, not so much about blogs, but in real life. I have a 'friend' who leaves me feeling completely drained after any encounter with her and I find myself questioning most things about me as a person, mother, wife, etc etc - what kind of idiot am I to even keep in any kind of contact with her? I have considered blogging about this particular issue - but fear of her ever reading it, and the ugly fallout (her husband works with mine - social circles - you know the drill) stops me.

I found your blog via Suburban Oblivion :)

Mommy Daisy said...

Kelsey - Yeah, I'd be dying to know if someone else had posted this. I just don't really want to say, I don't think. I'd hate to hurt someone's feelings.

Swistle- That's the feeling I have. I read another of her blogs this morning. Not so bad lately, it's only once in a while that it annoys me.

SO - It's definitely not you. I love your blog. Love the quote. Thanks.

Kelli- Nope, I love your blog. This person has never commented on my blog, so I don't think she reads it. Even if she does, she probably has no idea it's her.

Annie- Thanks for stopping by. Yep, that's exactly the relationship I'm talking about. Go ahead and blog it. Just don't use her name. She probably won't even know it's her, even if she does read it. That's how people like that are. I don't keep in touch with that friend like that anymore. And my sister, well, my contact with her is limited. I love her, but I can't carry on long conversations with her.